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I know I haven’t written for a long time. I guess I haven’t felt like I’ve had a lot to say. Or maybe it’s that I am not willing to say what I need to say.

But once again I find myself alone with not just my thoughts. Walking through the east village, wandering alone I hear reggae. I stop and walk into the bar and already a couple rums into the night.

What is this night for?

I suspect more to come.

Tonight is a benefit concert for one of my best friend’s husband who passed away April 3, 2014.

I wrote a lot in this web diary about his illness. I even wrote about how, if it was possible to switch places with him, I would have. I certainly don’t want to die but people make sacrifices with their lives each and every day. Soldiers, secret service, police, fire people (gender neutral) friends and just good people. Why wouldn’t I if I could for just one person. This one person had his soul mate. This one person had a group of friends that loved him so much. He had a 15 month old daughter. I have none of those things. I have people that love me, yes, but the person I’m talking about has so much more.

I’m at a benefit concert now for him. He’s been gone not even 3 months and here we have a collection of his friends, playing music and celebrating his life. This would never happen for me. Not that I’d want it. Actually when I die, I want people to bury me and move on with their lives. I am just a blip on the the timeline of life. AJ was also a blip, albeit a larger blip with more responsibility and likely a better contributor to the world as we know it, compared to me.

Moral of the story: be a good person and wear lots of sunscreen. And of course, he will always be loved.

Sorry for typos. Not proof read.

Google

Dear Google,

How do I change my work address as a default in my google account from an old work address (it appears in my google maps)? Ugh. If only Apple…. LOL.

NOTE: I figured it out.  You have to do in Google Maps iOS app while logged into a google account.

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Or maybe not… I feel like more than ever I’m being presented situations or circumstances that remind me that the changes I seek are more challenging than I had hoped. Am I happy? With certain aspects I am, but not there yet completely. I hope that is light I see at the end of the tunnel…and I know I need to keep moving to get there. But what will the end of the tunnel bring?

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